Alcoholics Anonymous, what a gigantic crock of leaky donkey turds right?

đę ƒὰḉ†ǿ, you should really "call your sponsor" or "write about it". You sound like you're really "dry", you should probably do another "fourth step". "You need a meeting". Trust me on this one, if you just "let go and let God" you'll feel "clean and serene".